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littles

Third time lucky I want to share about little’s today. I love my little’s. I spend time with them when I can. We watch cartoons and read stories. We draw and play with toys. There have been a lot of … Continue reading

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update

its been hard lately. we have had a lot of stuff come up in therapy. my little’s are feeling very safe with G. they answer her questions straight away and have no problem relaying the most horrific details of the … Continue reading

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my body does not lie

image credit google i have been holding inside so many things.  yet again yesterday something threatened to bring my world crashing down.  sometimes the truth is harder to hear than a lie. i wish my world would just lie to … Continue reading

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in the real world

  it occurred to me this morning that a dragon is a pretty fierce part to have inside.  if  this is the part that i got at such a young age then the abuse must have been very horrific. what … Continue reading

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finding my way out of the pit

it has been a rough week. we have been through a massive memory recovery and a giant pit of depression. my couch got a lot of use and so did my new velvety blanket. i have gotten past the shame … Continue reading

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fog

i have been trying to post for a couple of days now. i keep getting interrupted. not by life but by my other internal parts. i get cut off. distracted. switched out. any way to stall me from using my … Continue reading

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roller coaster

my internal system is in flux. i keep losing time to little ones who don’t know how to communicate with us. i have had a huge memory recovery recently. so everything is kinda up in the air. i thought things … Continue reading

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journey down the rabbit hole

again i am nocturnal. this last bout of flashbacks, nightmares and the opening of a memory of abuse has thrown my whole internal system out of whack. when i think i am sleeping,  i awake to find evidence of lost … Continue reading

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layers

i have been looking at the layers inside. not the layers of feelings. not the layers of the body and soul. but the layers of dissociation. the layers of my internal system. how it works and why. what i know … Continue reading

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feelings . . .

today the feelings started. those intense, deep, feelings that drag me down like rocks into the ocean. not the nice fluffy feelings that help me to remember that the world is still beautiful. the feelings connected to the abuse memories. … Continue reading

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