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French toast

I have decided to use this picture of a stack of French toast. It’s the last time my, now mostly moved out, housemates and I were not in a toxic situation that leaves me in my room avoiding them. I … Continue reading

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Light

So this post is a big sigh of relief. Finally. The real estate came today to see about the door. And everything got sorted out. Both housemates will be leaving and the real estate are willing to allow me to … Continue reading

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Trying

As I thought earlier, nothing comes without strings. Instead of talking I now get txt from said housemates. Txt that inform me that they will be paying less rent and want to stay for the next rental month. When I … Continue reading

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possible smiley face

Today’s update has some hope. Cautious, knowing not to trust anyone kind of hope. The kind of hope that knows better than to believe people. That feels like there is light at the end of the tunnel but has seen … Continue reading

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sad face

so things aren’t getting much better over here. I asked my housemates to leave. They said no. I told the real estate one of them wasn’t on the lease. They asked her to apply and are happy to put her … Continue reading

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Stretched to breaking point

This is how I feel right now. Like the bubble in the lava lamp in the picture. Stretched and about to split in two. Things at home have become almost unbearable. My two housemates have decided that they want to … Continue reading

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Bleh

Things have been rough lately. Today the body felt very sick. Had a fever and littles got triggered. Kept falling asleep and waking up in panic. Felt horrible for most of the day. Woke up at 0100 and feel fine … Continue reading

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Shake it off

There is no picture with this post. I cannot show you what I see inside. I have been busy doing stuff today. I built my desk and tidied our room. It looks much bigger now. I got organised about where … Continue reading

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When people don’t listen

This is a picture of brownies my littles made. Something nice for them to do while we try to handle the chaos inside. Because it is chaos. 3/4 of my active parts are integrating. That is roughly 90 parts. Which … Continue reading

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tdy

I am surrounded by littles today. Little voices saying all kinds of things. “I want my giraffe.” “We watch tv now” “I don’t want to get up” It makes me smile. I was feeling kinda sad about how lonely it … Continue reading

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