Tag Archives: feelings

Post integration tangles

As I write this my internal blocker is holding back my name. Since the integrations began is had been a game of guess who inside. I believe the integrations have completed. Partly because everything seems to have calmed down. Partly … Continue reading

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sad face

so things aren’t getting much better over here. I asked my housemates to leave. They said no. I told the real estate one of them wasn’t on the lease. They asked her to apply and are happy to put her … Continue reading

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Anxiety

Now I feel the anxiety. Things have shifted and changed inside. There are new parts active. A whole new sub system. I can feel their anxiety. It is not the wave it once was. Anxiety. It doesn’t wash over me … Continue reading

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update

its been hard lately. we have had a lot of stuff come up in therapy. my little’s are feeling very safe with G. they answer her questions straight away and have no problem relaying the most horrific details of the … Continue reading

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emptying the box

here i am again. lots of voices inside all trying to talk at the same time. so i have made the executive decision to let multiple parts post together. we’ll just see how that goes. could be a mess. could … Continue reading

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my body does not lie

image credit google i have been holding inside so many things.  yet again yesterday something threatened to bring my world crashing down.  sometimes the truth is harder to hear than a lie. i wish my world would just lie to … Continue reading

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the circus is in town

image credit: google Ladies and Gentlemen! come one come all! its that time again……. time for feelings!!!! is what i would say if i wasn’t still curled in a ball on my couch. i have ideas. i have the will … Continue reading

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peeling me off the floor

i want to say that i woke up when my alarm went off and i got into my car and drove into the rain. but i didn’t my alarm went off and i received a txt from confirmed friend, who … Continue reading

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gyno n stuff

image credit: google so i have been to the gyno. we have been to the gyno. what an experience. she is well versed in making sure the client feels safe and trusts her. the problem was. the male parts came … Continue reading

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breaking old habits

image credit: me i have just, hopefully, processed the last of the grief from changing therapists. we had a good cry after reading our last email to her. sat around the fire pit inside and remembered our favourite moments with … Continue reading

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