Tag Archives: DID

Modes?

I have been trying to study. Mostly failing to do so. Prepping but not finishing. Getting most of the way there but not quite making it all the way. It has been a journey of frustration. A very big lesson … Continue reading

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Awesomeness

Yesterday the universe opened up and said “hey you, sitting in the corner with the DID. Here you go. Have some awesomeness. ” Packages I have been waiting for came in the mail. I remembered to do my washing. My … Continue reading

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Talking littles

Today my littles started to draw again. The drawings are of horrific abuse. Most of the things my littles draw are. But that is ok. They have not drawn since the end of October. So we are all glad that … Continue reading

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parentals

I have been slowly weaning my parents off contacting me. Down to a phone call every two weeks. Pretty good right? I looked at the date today and realized my birthday is soon. All kinds of stuff started coming up … Continue reading

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sand tray

My littles did a sand tray in our last therapy session. Which led us to memories about our dog. Allowed us to process some grief over her death. Ended in revealing a memory of abuse by some men in a … Continue reading

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Caveness

I had a friend stay for a week recently. Someone who I have known for years and trust. We did a culinary journey of where I live. I never knew that there were so many places that sold burritos. Now … Continue reading

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Sense of calm

This is a picture of my little sand garden. I don’t know who bought it. But it is supposed to be calming. Today I met two parts I have not met before. It’s one of those subtle Integrations. From another … Continue reading

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catch up

ok so things are a bit rocky. that’s ok. internet has been on and off. have been a little overwhelmed by littles and memory recovery lately. is slowing but the memories are fairly volatile. moving much deeper into the abuse. … Continue reading

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Opening the box

We have been silent for a while. Today was a big day for us. Had not seen G in a month. G is our therapist. Have been working a lot and talking inside. Keeping a balance and letting everyone have … Continue reading

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Warning, danger is imminent

Today I am fragmented. I am split. I am compartmentalized. Some of my parts are acting on their own. Normally this would be cause for alarm. Not today. My internal system has delegated things to different parts. Everything is covered. … Continue reading

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