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Who am I 

Usually I know the answer to this question  I recently ended a relationship with a narcissist who, to me in hindsight, is a survivor of child abuse and clearly on the dissociative spectrum (not yet self aware) If I had … Continue reading

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How to move on as an us

its the first time that I have had to go through a break up as a person with conscious DID. It’s harder and easier. I have the support of other parts to calm those parts who are upset. I have … Continue reading

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Broken hearted us

i have held back from being in the dating/relationship area for a while. I went into this experience with the best of intentions. I came out of it broken and aware that I needed to do more work on us.  … Continue reading

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Life in the super fast lane

So once again life is hitting me at full force. No surprises there.  F was driving our therapy sessions. So when G briefly came out of retirement we spoke to her about this. And Littles had hugs of course.  Now … Continue reading

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Questions

now I have the questions What do you do when you have many parts internally but one of them may be attracted to a male? When the majority of your parts are attracted to females. When this male Is a … Continue reading

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Limits

   We had therapy the other day. Our G is retiring soon. We have been seeing her for 4 years. The last year in conjunction with F. Littles feel sad, because they are little. As a result of this change … Continue reading

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Maybe this time….

here we are again, on therapy day. No deep probing release of memories. Just a check in. Still, there is unsettledness. Last night there was sleeplessness. It makes me wonder if those reactions are just about the anxiety of going … Continue reading

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The battle rages on

Since my most recent PTSD flare up things had been ok. Settling back to normal. Well my normal. Then we let our littles have some time in a T session. They usually let memories out in small fragments. Note the … Continue reading

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Thoughts

   just between you and us, hahaha, things have started to move lately. George and Charlie have started to look at poly sites on the web. I have noticed the absence of particular parts as I come out of my … Continue reading

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A moment of clarity

I find myself in a cycle of grief again. I feel a great loss. The more I watch other people, learn how they balance everything, I find all of these experiences that I don’t have.  Other people have childhoods, family … Continue reading

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