Category Archives: system

Tiny ninja of positivity

Today I am very reflective. I have decided to share something that makes me smile. In previous years I have had some bad dealings with people. It has had an effect on how cautious I am towards them and others … Continue reading

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Littles ageing

it has been a long and hard week for us as a system. Therapy brought out something huge for us. Strengthened our bond with G but shook us to our core at the same time. A large amount of significant … Continue reading

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The body and other strange things

Last night we had a fever, headache and nausea. Normal for a little coming into the body for the first time. It got me thinking about what actually happens in the brain and the body when this occurs. The body … Continue reading

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Post integration tangles

As I write this my internal blocker is holding back my name. Since the integrations began is had been a game of guess who inside. I believe the integrations have completed. Partly because everything seems to have calmed down. Partly … Continue reading

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change

So our big news is that we have begun to find ourselves on the other side of integrations. Most of our adult parts are still integrating inside. All of our little parts have aged, all at once. in conclusion, our … Continue reading

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French toast

I have decided to use this picture of a stack of French toast. It’s the last time my, now mostly moved out, housemates and I were not in a toxic situation that leaves me in my room avoiding them. I … Continue reading

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phew

So things have finally calmed down. We don’t normally let littles write posts here. We don’t want to silence them, this has just been a space for adults. I guess they needed some connection. We have a place for them … Continue reading

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Pandora’s box

I thought today I would write about the Pandora’s box which has been opened inside. This is always a very dangerous thing. We never know what will come out. If we can close the lid again. The box was opened … Continue reading

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Shake it off

There is no picture with this post. I cannot show you what I see inside. I have been busy doing stuff today. I built my desk and tidied our room. It looks much bigger now. I got organised about where … Continue reading

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When people don’t listen

This is a picture of brownies my littles made. Something nice for them to do while we try to handle the chaos inside. Because it is chaos. 3/4 of my active parts are integrating. That is roughly 90 parts. Which … Continue reading

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