its the first time that I have had to go through a break up as a person with conscious DID. It’s harder and easier. I have the support of other parts to calm those parts who are upset. I have internal conversations about the entire process.
Many many conversations at length with parts who are at different stages. All at different stages. Going through that process over and over amplified. Just when I have a grip on functioning someone else will lose themselves in grief. Someone else will want to contact him. Someone else will have emotions at level 10000.
At these points someone else will step in. Someone else will field the agonising call of distress. I can hear it all but now it is less. It seems that most parts have gone through the hell that is the first few weeks of a break up. I don’t have to deal with it.
I can get on with trying to function in the outside world. I can go to work and the conversation is in the distance inside. I can push through and feel the normal. I can keep on getting through the daily tasks expected of me. I can feel normal.
I have taken a break from all other social media but here. It’s nice not to have a bunch of triggers setting me off balance. To let all of those feelings and unhealthy behaviours go. To break that cycle and just put one foot in front of the other.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Someone else will take care of the rest.