We write this post with a little sadness. As a person who dissociates I know that there are a lot of things I/we don’t know about. Other internal parts have been living their own lives prior to co consciousness. Yesterday one of our parts showed us a piece of her life prior to becoming co conscious. We would like to share her story.
George is one of our sexual parts (probably best that only over 18’s read this). As far as we were aware George liked not being in relationships. She was whole heartedly against them. Happy to take and give a little from a lot of women. Never interested in being monogamous.
There is more to this story. George filled in some gaps in our memory time line yesterday. George had a monogamous relationship once. With a woman who was a single mother. George had a family. George was happy.
One night George was followed “home” by her partner. To the house where another part lived with her partner. Our internal system was not yet self aware. Both parts thought that they were the only one in our body. So their relationships met with our internal moral compass.
Both relationships ended without either of our parts knowing why at that point. I cannot imagine what it was like for George, the other part involved or either of the women.
This happened a long time ago. We just felt that George’s story needed to be heard so she can grieve and begin to process.