this is my first public post. i have been in therapy for about a year and a half. made great progress. i am transitioning therapists. and several of my friends on the world wide web have suggested that i share my thoughts, my trials and triumphs with others who may be suffering.
i never ever thought i would be someone who has a dissociation disorder. i thought i had anger problems and maybe some abandonment issues. but not what i have discovered about myself. and selves.
it has taken a lot of adjusting to having an internal system. a lot of compromise and negotiating. i. we. our village has 37 parts so far. we keep finding new parts inside. the more abuse we uncover. the more parts we find. we know why they are there. and are grateful for them being in existence. if not for them we would not have survived the abuse to be here now.
we have been doing some internal landscaping. which one of us read about. it has helped with internal communication immensely. we have two houses inside, a men’s house and a women’s house. the little ones stay in the women’s house. having our own rooms and some privacy has meant the world to both the adult and child parts. having your own safe space is something we have never had.
i guess i wanted to write some kind of a guide. i’m not sure. but it helps to get it out there.